on August 13th 2013
Narrator: Noah Galvin
Length: 6 hrs and 19 mins
Genres: Young Adult
Source: Brown Books, NetGalley
How would you spend your birthday if you knew it would be your last?
Eighteen-year-old Leonard Peacock knows exactly what he'll do. He'll say goodbye.
Not to his mum - who he calls Linda because it annoys her - who's moved out and left him to fend for himself. Nor to his former best friend, whose torments have driven him to consider committing the unthinkable. But to his four friends: a Humphrey-Bogart-obsessed neighbour, a teenage violin virtuoso, a pastor's daughter and a teacher.
Most of the time, Leonard believes he's weird and sad but these friends have made him think that maybe he's not. He wants to thank them, and say goodbye.
I read this in October, 2014 and it has stayed with me. At the time I was debating whether or not to add it to my Horror Mondays. I still remember this book, so what I mentioned below is true about psychological thrillers. I have been reading more mysteries and thrillers, which are not my go to reads, but there is still something alluring about them. This one in particular stuck with me. I thought about this one for days! And while many books almost immediately are forgotten, I remember this story three years later!
This is definitely a controversial story and one that will leave readers, and those that do not want to read, talking for ages. It’s deep and I think that’s a great thing.
I think that psychological horror can sometimes be the worst kind. No, it’s not in your face, which is why I paused when I was thinking over if I wanted to add this review to Horrifying Mondays, but what psychological horror does is STAY with you.
When I read or watch something that is more on the lines of psychological horror I don’t get that sudden anxiety. Nor do I jump out of my seat, or spill my popcorn. What does happen is this layering of feelings like a cake but mired with anxiety. These layers build and build the anticipation of what could happen and even when the climax hits my heart is sometimes beating so fast that I could jump out of my skin if someone said something to me in that moment.
No, unlike gory or in your face scares, psychological horrors will leave you thinking, sometimes for years afterwards and that is exactly why this review is set for today. I think I’ll be thinking about this one for a long time.
Leonard Peacock is just a boy that nobody understands. He just wants what everyone wants, friendship, love, loyalty. Those things that some others take for granted.
Reading about Leonard really made my heart race. At every point in this book I was wondering if he would go with his plan of attack. He really wants someone to talk him out of it, anyone, and I think he is even really trying to tell people that he is upset, but no one will listen!
I listened to this on audible and I have to say the narrator, Noah Galvin, was fabulous. I believed every single word he said. He put inflections in exactly where I would expect a sarcastic teenager to. He read this narration with such feeling that I had a huge amount of empathy for Leonard Peacock, even with his dastardly plans.
The entire book had me moving closer and closer and closer to the edge of my seat. The way Matthew Quick wrote this was amazing and although to the point, he adds in some backward and forward movement for Leonard so the reader really gets a sense of who he is by the end of the book. Secrets were revealed that I would never have imagined.
The future tense parts of this threw me off for a minute but those are even explained further along in the book. Everything is explained. This is a read where when you read the synopsis you may think that this will be a tear jerker, and to a point it is, but it is also so much, much more than that. In this is a smart kid trying to figure out if life really is worth living. He’s asking that pivotal question about existence and if he will be able to survive it all.
In the end, absolutely amazing.