Published by Point on October 1st 2012
Find your voice.
Hopeless. Freak. Elephant. Pitiful. These are the words of Skinny, the vicious voice that lives inside fifteen-year-old Ever Davies’s head. Skinny tells Ever all the dark thoughts her classmates have about her. Ever knows she weighs over three hundred pounds, knows she’ll probably never be loved, and Skinny makes sure she never forgets it.
But there is another voice: Ever’s singing voice, which is beautiful but has been silenced by Skinny. Partly in the hopes of trying out for the school musical—and partly to try and save her own life—Ever decides to undergo a risky surgery that may help her lose weight and start over.
With the support of her best friend, Ever begins the uphill battle toward change. But demons, she finds, are not so easy to shake, not even as she sheds pounds. Because Skinny is still around. And Ever will have to confront that voice before she can truly find her own.
This is one book that, while I do not remember the entirety of the plot, I do remember how it made me feel. The voice in Ever’s head really stuck with me. Especially since I have had to come to terms with my own voice. Basically my terms were, get the F out of here. If only it were that easy though. The story really felt like something real because I have had to work through my own issues, and my own voice giving me negative information all the time. No wonder so many people have so much anxiety! I think this time of year, being a new year when everyone is thinking about what they want to do better, to be better, or to be different, it is especially important to remember that we are okay, just the way we are. We are better than ok, you are perfect. Going to have to go re-read this one.
This book is amazing! Everyone has a voice, the voice that tells you that you will never be good enough, smart enough, brave enough or strong enough to do what you want to do. Some voices are louder than others but it’s the voices that hurt you that seem to scream in your head and that is exactly what Ever’s voice does. It screams at her, every second of every day. It made me so sad but I wanted her to get up and fight it, to stand up to that voice, even if it is in her head and declare that today is THE LAST DAY. That she wasn’t going to take it anymore.
It is amazing what Ever has to go through and although quite a bit of this makes you cringe and want to cover your eyes like you’re watching a scary movie, at the same time you just feel for her. I just wanted to give her a hug! She only needed a friend but she let the voice choose her friends for her. It was horrible but in a great way!
So when I closed this book I thought to myself, how can I rate this? How can I rate the pain, and the love, and the trust, and lack thereof? How can I rate something so profound and yet so easy to read? So, I started thinking of the positives.
The plot was great, well paced and easy to read, although quite horrifying psychologically. The characters were magnificent, each had their own agenda, whether good or bad and they just made the story so believable. The timing and the ideas behind Ever was fantastic. Losing weight is HARD work. Sometimes you are going to give in and eat that candy bar at Midnight. And chocolate was definitely Ever’s nemesis! There’s so much VALUE here. The way Ever lost weight may not work for some people but she tried. She was willing to put in 100% effort to get it done AND it wasn’t a diet gimmick, it was real life hard work! Plus on top of all of this, like I said before, the entertainment value was there! I mean, yes I wanted to hide my eyes but I never did because I couldn’t actually STOP reading!
Negatives? Absolutely not a ONE!